i suddenly miss soooo many ppl. i haf no idea why.
maybe the end of exams has struck me even harder than before.

yh: altho i noe ure nver gonna read this, but yes, i miss u more than ever. our constant bickering over small lil stuff causes me to haf this really deep impression of u. i haf no idea why. we were really close once, but we drifted due to ur exams. u've been one big figure in my life ever since sec 1. and i admire ur humility and modesty even tho ure frm e top sch in singapore. that made a huge diff in my life,altho u mite not know it. u knew and felt my insecurity, and listened intently as i explained. u were nver wad other ppl judged u as, seeing that u come frm such and such.but yes, u took it all in ur stride. we got along really well, and u were one of the few guys whom i noe appreciates the lil things, and put in a lot of effort into relationships, no matter wad kind. and u haf no idea how much ur frenship means to me, and i'll make sure it lasts no matter what.

sean: ure in army and yes, ure not sick of it.lol.

hope to see u soon =)

.i.lurve.you.
.and.i.miss.you.very.much.
.will.u.ever.know.
.will.u.ever.feel.

wheeeeee!
i got Clay's Xmas CD and my sis purchased his memoir, Learning to Sing: Hearing The Music In Your Life for meeeeeee!
his book is inspirational in a quirky sense, with a lot of Faye Parker's meaningful quotes. They project a strong meaning but in a subtle and gentle way.There are a few recipes of Clay's favourite childhood food. I've looked tru e ingredients and seriously, i have no idea where to get Lima beans.I dont even noe whats dat to say e truth.

the book did not contain overly bombastic vocabulary words or expressions, but it managed to get the point across. his life experiences were just left out in the open, in the form of a hardcover book, for every child or man to get a glimpse of.
his blistering childhood past, was a souvenir of the struggling life he grew up in. there were memories he wish had been long forgotten, yet they were still embedded in his mind, cos he himself knew he would not have gotten where he is now without learnin frm them.
he recalled memories frm birth til high school, and none of them were very nice.
he was what you call an "accidental" child, and he was born with a collapsed lung.his life wasn sailing smoothly right from the beginning.

and i was really touched. he described his life in the YMCA and how he grew to love working with autistic children. someone with a personality and willpower like his doesn't come around everyday.and i really admire him for that.although i like his "revenge of the nerds" style very much, his voice is the sole power that really attracts me.and he has a sense of humour to boot. =)

momentarily had e inspiration to switch my template to a not-so-sickly-sweet,much more contrastin and pretty template. that's a lot off my mind tho. had been wantin to change ever since er..dunno when.
for one, the background and font colours are gorgeous. and the pictures are sweet. and i have this fondness for hearts.anything to do with hearts. out of all e templates i d/led, 3/4 of them have either a heart picture or has a certain tinge of sweetness in it. call it fetish, but yea. =)

the background music's yujian by stef sun, it's one hell of an old song, but the ringtone's still kinda popular, judgin that a lot of people in my lecture go by this ringtone. the piano effect is extremely soothin, and this song is special in a sense to me. but i have a bad hunch i'm gonna get very sick of this song soon.

ooh.headed down to the visa office with 2 frens to enquire about something.then we headed down to town.orchard's gettin pretty boring, to say the least, cos i keep seeing the same shops havin the same old sales with their products goin at the same dang price. not much to look at in orchard. and i went to check out sembawang music store, and they have not gotten Clay Aiken's Xmas album shipped in yet. it's totally slow, the album's been out quite some time ago, and i thought that it would be quite a hot commodity here.
we then strolled to kinokuniya for some light readin, browsed through some magazines and a few newly - published novels. i have been wantin to get Dan Brown's Angels & Demons for ages, just didnt have enough cash for the past few days, cos of Honey and all.

Honey's my husband, okok i'll cut the act, Honey's my rabbit! Ray got it for me from a fren when i said i wanted hamsters. She discouraged me endlessly about keepin a hamster. So here I am with Honey! it's grown pretty much. around a quarter more since i first got it. At first, it was stuck in a small cage, but now..it has quite a huge cage which it hops around in. a pretty adorable lil thing. it sniffs everything in its sight and the pose in which it sleeps is utterly CUTE. and it yawns. it stretches and yawns. i can just sit there and watch it eat and do whatever nonsense in the cage. Honey has kept me company for endless of hours at home. haha.

he's gone to china for a council cip trip. hope he enjoys himself =)
i dont wanna sound weepy or anything, but yea. i've gotten over the initial sadness, but not totally. it'll take time i guess. oh well. wonder how long it'll take anyway.

to xuan and grace: exams are endin soon! so yes..let loose a little and enjoy freedom.=)

and yes, to Claymates: enjoy the Xmas album and his book! can't wait to read it. been missing a lot of clack these days. it'll be worth the wait, so lena, be patient.

gonna get ready for trainin, and hopefully i'll update more regularly instead of the patchy now-and-then kinda thing.

-...maybe only in our blind belief..can we ever find the truth...-